feelings for a friend

I sit here and write in secrecy
not letting you know anything
about how I really feel about you
im hoping you will ask me
what’s going on in my head
you are everything that I dread
I feel as tho you know everything
but you don’t say anything
you are the perfect drug for me
I think that is something you see
im keeping everything a secret
until the day you confront me
I hope that day never comes
but I hope that day is today
I lye here and think of the feelings
that I share for you my friend
I lye here and think of the feelings
that you have toward me as well
I know we don’t feel the same way
but it’s the only way I can dream
I wish that things were easier,
that we could be with each other,
that I was the only one you cared for
I want to ask you the same things
about the things that you dream
I want to ask you how you feel
I want to know everything
but im too scared to ask you
could you please ask me......