end of the line

ive run to the end of the line
ive ran out of excuses
i dont know where to go from here
is this where i finally die?
the rain falls upon me
as i fall to my knees
i dont have the answers this time
i feel useless and dead
but my heart beats on
i dont know what to do anymore
will you please end this for me
put a bullet to my brain
or douse me in gasoline
and light my cigarette for me
i dont know how to stay sane
just lay my body to rest
i need to take a long break
and i dont want to awake