motherly love

im not good enough
not even for them
i expect it from others
but not from them
i feel a pain inside
like someone is stabbing me
and has ripped out my heart
parents are suppose to love
but mine only hate
sometimes i wish
i could just start over
and be the way they wanted
but then other times
i know i am fine
the way that i am
whether people accept me or not
thats up to them
and thats ok with me
even if it is my parents
i have to learn to accept it